Je suis fatigué. Maintenant que l'école est de se terminer, je n'ai pas de motivation à faire quoi que ce soit, même si il ya encore dix jours. je veux vacances d'été à être maintenant. Il ya seulement quelques jours. J'ai juste à survivre jusque-là

OMG! AP exams are in like... 2 WEEKS! NUUUUUU... i'm sooo stressed. i don't seem like it on the outside, but inside, i'm freaking out. I'm so afraid i'm going to fail! >.< i really hope i can pull myself together enough so that i can study T.T

...i think i threw away my retainer... fuck .

::sigh:: sometimes i wish Manga isn't being licensed so randomly and then during the translation process, change the fuck out of it. I mean, yea, translations are getting better and better, but most of it still sound really awkward. Yes, i know, u can't completely translate a language into another. I KNOW. i speak 2 and am currently learning a 3rd. But simple as it is, Scanlators even if their translations arn't always correct, they are apprently better and smarter than translating companies because the Flow is much better.

though i rant about this alot, it's HORRIBLE NOW! with the Mass introduction of japanese manga into America, fans who show their appreciation through fanficion... well thoses series, are being FLOODED with Mary-sues and Self inserts that I just want to stab my computer! just by reading the summary it sounds INSANELY CLICHE. Sometimes, i can't even go into my favorite Fandoms without a seriously bad CLICHE and SUEISH fic in there. It ruins the whole thing >.< STOP IT!

... the sad thing is... all thoses Cliche plots w/ bimbo sues that make all the boys around them fall in love with them, IS EXACTLY like most of the new shoujo mangas. Though i read very few Shoujo manga, i still like to read summaries on them just incase i MIGHT like it... BLEH... Most adays now it's all the same thing with in my opinion, bimbie girls with big boobs who are !OH So special or !angesty. But at least they TRY [sadly some still don't and there are always really bad manga out there]. yes, there are BL manga like that too, but in my opinion, they seem more indept [unless ur going straight to the yaoi where there's glorious buttsexx LOL] but... that's besides the point. The Point is that fiction wrighters DON'T Stick guys in there much, where was mary-sues are close to Dominating Every series. ::pukes:: stop the madness and just let us go back to IN CHARACTER characters... oh yea, that and decent fics, [unless it's humor or crack... just not clicheness].

Ack! very much stressed today. Being the procrastinator i am, OF COURSE i left my essay to be done on the LAST day, and not even last day at that, but like 4 hours before it's suppose to be turned in >.

blah... random post idecided to deleat cause it was screwing w/ my lj layout >.

It's halloween. I should be excited, and i am... but all my procrastination is catching up to me.T.T.
ya know all thoses euro notes i neglected? well, my teacher decided to collect them to day... and since i'm not done yet, i have to finish them all tonight and drop it off to him in the morning. oh joy... i get to stay up till like 3 again XP.

yea, simple as that. Fanfiction's Email Alerts are a bitch! ytf art they working *pout* it means i actually have to go look for the fics i read and are regularly updated... poo.

also, i've decided that kc_anathema is my new fav. author! her fics are absolutely amazing! if ur an HP slash fan like me, u'll probably love her! kudos!
<3
so... anways, now i get to go back to working on my annoying euro notes... how fun. >.<'

life is just sooo complicated... i dunno what i wanna do sometimes. My feelings are always in total dissary. Sometimes i don't even know what to do anymore. It seems so normal on the outside... but inside... i just wanna curl up and cry sometimes. I'm doing horrible in school. It's not that it's too hard, and it's not that i lack the motivation...yet most of the time i just don't feel like doing anything. Am I depressed? sometimes i think i am, and sometimes I wish i was, maybe then i could blame everything on the depression...

My relationship with God is just so complicated and lacking. Do i doubt him sometimes, yea i do alot. I try to turn to him daily, but i just feel so empty inside now adays. I don't think my relationship with him was strong to begin from, but at least there was some what of a fellowship between him, but now life is just to complicated and stressful.

Yunacat wrote...

LilPoKPoKi Wrote:
"Not only that, but have you taken a look at your art? Most of the people who say they want to make a manga can't even draw! I am a student who is taking college level art, my art has been in so many competitions, and I have made murals. Yet, I do not even for one second dare to say that I can become an artist. If you think you are good, and your really are, then good for you. I am proud of you, you got real talent kid, but I'm not directing this at you."

I can draw, and i'm a student of art as well. I've been winning awards ever since 1st grade, and still winning them now, whether in school or community art contests..

What's the point of taking college level art without an aim? You should be taking a course that has an aim for your dream.. which is where i hit my brick in a hard place, because i can't find one for what i want ( cuz i wanna take two courses simultaneously, but i can't find a college that holds both at the same time..except in Canada.. o-o )

OMFG... this person wrote this as a retort to 's post on gaiaonline... okay... so what wrote came off as a bitchy impression of herself and seemed to just want to crush ppl's "i wanna be a managka dream" but i find that 's retort was hallarious... concidering that i went and checked out her livejournal... and i was expecting to see amazing works concidering she's a collge student and she said " I've been winning awards ever since 1st grade, and still winning them now, whether in school or community art contests.." yet... no offense.... but my sister could probably draw better than her... i expected to see at least some of a college student's porfolio or well done samples of her art.. but wow...er... totally NOT what i expected... yea.. lol i found that funny and hypocritcal... XDD okies... i'mma kinda pissed off my computer is broken and being taken in for repairs... so yea i'm kinda being mean, execially since came off as the "i'm better than u... Ha!" w/ her " I've been winning awards ever since 1st grade, and still winning them now, whether in school or community art contests.." remark and i'm like yea... if ur gonna brag... at least back it up. XD okies... i'll be nice now...

OKAY here is the msn group i made for every one to post SSOT pixs !

http://groups.msn.com/SSOTpix

to look at the pics, i don't think u need an account, but to post pics u need to join and be approved by me to join so when u join, leave ur name, cause i don't want random ppl posting stupid unSSOT pics there!

now i'm pissed off...............

it's really hard for me draw guys... but now... their face shapes are soo hard to...

but on to the subject of loveless....

yuiko pisses me off... majorly!
she's so mean to yayoi, and she's so clingly to ritsuka... and it's annoys me!

soubixritsuka rules!!!

arn't theses adorable by the way! http://indrac.hp.infoseek.co.jp/shop/loveless-sheet.jpg

yea... i know... i'm really random!

also here!
http://cosplay.co.uk/photos/5206.jpg

i'll probably make an icon or wallpaper w/ that! it's a new pic i reacently found!

____


god i need someone to recomend a bunch of new series to me! prefably ones w/ the least possible girls ... or atleast ones that arn't annoying... god... most of the ones seem like mary-sues from self-insert ficlets... it's really annoying... and i wanna rip the book up!

___

had my violin class again to day... cept it's usually on monday... but since my teacher's brother is coming that day...he moved it again for wednesday... not the 29th but the 6th of july...

and since i'm going to vegas w/ my parents and sis on the 15ths, i gata find out if there's convetion or ani-expose there...

ja ne ...

by the way... i've luv KAT_TUN! bishies!!! i just read oujisama_game! and it's sooo adorable.... i luv the guys in there! and the prices are sooo amusing!
i luv how the 7th prince is always jelous and over-emoional...
and the 6th is so cute how he confesses to Jin every day!
but who can forget the 1st prince! he mistakes kill and assasination for flirting! thought the assasin did make a good girl!!!
btw... that artist is office tied w/ CLAMP as best artiest for manga males!
....
though dr. ten still does the best smut and ... yea...
may be i should name all my favorite anime couples in certain series.!

here i go
Angel Sanctuary
rosielxkatan
raphxmicheal
luciferxkira
kiraxsetsuna

Bleach
Bakuyaxichigo
Bakuyaxrenji
renjixichigo
... and more cause i don't remember ppl's name

cardcaptor
eriolxsyaoran
reedxyue
touyaxyukito

DNAngel
DarkxKrad
SatoshixDark

DeathNote
LxLight/raito

Demon Diary
Eclipsx Rea

evangelion
5th child and x 3rd child

FAKE
deexryo

Full metal Alchemist
RoyxEd
ScarxAl

Fubaru
...a lot...

Gravitation
yukixshu

Gundam Wing
1x2
3x4
trezxzecks

Inuyasha
Sesshomaruxinuyasha
kougaxinuyasha

Legal Drug
Rikuox Kazahaya
saiga(i think that's his name) x Kakei

Naruto
kakashix itachi
sasukexnaruto
gaaraxneji
shikamaruxneiji
shinoxkiba
orochimaruxkabuto
Kisame x Itachi

one piece
zoroxsanji
smokerxace

peacemaker
SuzuxTetsu
Hijikataxokita

petshop of horrors
LeonxD

Ranma
ryogaxranma

rayearth
lantisxeagle

saiyuki
Homuraxsanzo
sanzoxhakkai
natakuxgoku
Kougaijixsanzo
Nii JienixKougaiji
DoujixKougaiji
GojyoxHakkai
DoujixGojyo
Gojyoxgoku

Shaman King
renxyoh
haoxyoh
horohoroxren
horohoroxyoh

tennis no ouji-sama
fujixryoma
tezukaxryoma
atobexryoma
atobextezuka
Inuixkaido
golden pair!
Oshitari x Ryoma
Oshixgaku
ShishidoxOhtori
AtobexJiroh
Kamioxshinji
mizukixyuuta
Akutsuxdan
Akutsuxsengoku
Saeki x Ryoma
Sanadaxyukimura
Kirihara x Ryoma
Kevin x Ryoma
---and alot more---

tsubasa
kuroxfai
the two gods...

Weiss Kreuz
bradxaya
shuxaya
youjixaya
nagixomi
kenxomi
farfiexken
farfiexaya

Wish
ShuichiroxKohaku
KouryuuxKohaku
KokuyoxHisui

x/1999
fuumaxkamui
seishiroxsubaru
--and more---

yami no matsuei
tsuzukixhisoka
murakixoriya
murakixhisoka
oriyaxhisoka
tatsumixwatari

yu-gi-oh
setoxyami
bakuraxryou
...and more...

XXXHOLiC
DoumekixWatanuki

Clover
GingetsuxRan

CCD
souhxnakoru

loveless
soubixritsuka
seimeixsoubi
seimeixritsuka
kioxyayoi
female zeros
male zeros

and thoses are only the YAOI couples i can think up a head of time from a series...

hey check out the pic i made!

http://artpad.art.com/?iiliocievqg

i think it's purdy

also, i'm postin' this on my lj just incase pl visit

it's pat 2 of volume 3

http://s41.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=17619D4UGPTXR2ZRCV97VCXXCY

here's a pic of soubi i drew! tell me what you think of it!

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OMG!!! i am totally freaking out!!!!! i have my violin concert today!!!!
god...*cries* i'm gonna die!!!!!!!!!!!
must calm down... breathe.... don't attempt suicide XD!!!
lol i'm not suidicidal... i can't even spell it right for god's sake!!
yesterday was friday the 13th! i thought i was going to have the worst day ever.
i have to spazz about some thing!!!!!!
i also have to rant about random things!!! like................................................................................................................................................................
LOVELESS!!! god i am in love w/ that manga!!! i am in love!! thought i didn't like ep 6 as much cause there wasn't too much soubixritsoka action! gr...... an soubi was being hurt!!! how could any one whip him.

ja ne to who ever actually visit's this place!

i'll be back later!!!!... dunno when thought!!!

You Know You're Chinese When...

You unwrap Christmas gifts very carefully, so you can save and reuse the wrapping (and especially those bows) next year.
XDDDD

You only buy Christmas cards after Christmas, when they are 50% off.
My mom does!
When there is a sale on toilet paper, you buy 100 rolls and store them in your closet or in the bedroom of an adult child who has moved out.
god! yes!

You have a vinyl table cloth on your kitchen table.
surprisingly, no

Your stove is covered with aluminum foil.
Yup!

You use the dishwasher as a dish rack.
XDDDDD YES! We never use the dish washer!!!

You keep a Thermos of hot water available at all times.
i think we might... i just don't know about it...

You eat all meals in the kitchen.
Only breakfast and lunch, when I'm home for lunch that is

You save grocery bags, tin foil, and tin containers.
Grocery bags, yes. They become garbage can bags ^^

You use grocery bags to hold garbage.
LOL. See above XD

You always leave your shoes at the door.
Who doesn't? o_o;

You have a piano in your living room.
... actually, i don't play piano... we had an electric one thought...

You twirl your pen around your fingers.
yes... bad habit... then it goes flying out of your hand

Even if you're totally full, if someone says they're going to throw away the leftovers on the table, you'll finish them.
no


You don't own any real Tupperware -- only a cupboard full of used but carefully rinsed margarine tubs, takeout containers, and jam jars.
We have both =p

You also use the jam jars as drinking glasses.
...no o_O; Who'd do that?

You've eaten a red bean Popsicle.
*thinks* No actually... I don't particularly like red bean.

You bring oranges (or other produce) with you as a gift when you visit people's homes.
No, but my parent does sometimes.

You have a collection of miniature shampoo bottles that you take every time you stay in a hotel.
.... nope.

The condiments in your fridge are either Price Club sized or come in plastic packets, which you save/steal every time you get take out or go to McDonald's.
No o_o;

Ditto for paper napkins.
No =p

You never order room service.
Yup. Too expensive

You carry a stash of your own food whenever you travel (and travel means any car ride longer than 15 minutes). These travel snacks are always dried. As in not just dried plums, dried ginger, and beef/pork jerky, but dried cuttlefish (SQUID).
my parents sooo do that!

Your parents vehemently refuse the sack of gold coin oranges that their guests just brought just to be courteous.
Not really when it comes to gifts, but of course there's the usual "You're too genersou!".

Your dad thinks he can fix everything himself.
Not everything, but damn near everything. XD And he can actually do most of the housework!

You majored in something practical like engineering, medicine or law.
my parents want me to

When you go to a dance party, there are a wall of guys surrounding the dance floor trying to look cool.
I don't go to dance parties

You live with your parents and you are 30 years old (and they prefer it that way). Or if you're married and 30 years old, you live in the apartment next door to your parents, or at least in the same neighborhood.
of course i live w/ my parents! i'm too young to live on my own!

You don't use measuring cups.
No, I don't cook except for instant noodles. XD

You feel like you've gotten a good deal if you didn't pay tax.
Almost everything is taxed here. ]

You beat eggs with chopsticks.
yes

Your parents' house is always cold.
It's cool downstairs,

You have a teacup with a cover on it.
i think we actually do... i jsut don't use it...

You reuse teabags.
no.

Your mom drives her Mercedes to the Price Club.
We don't have a Mercedes.

You tip Chinese delivery guys / waiters more.
Um, no?

You're a wok user.
I don't cook. My mom does.

You like Chinese films in their original undubbed versions.
Of course... = =; Why should I watch dubbed versions when I understand the language?

You have acquired a taste for bittermelon.
dunno???

You like congee with thousand year old eggs.
i think i actually do!

You prefer your shrimp with the heads and legs still attached -- it means they're fresh.
I don't really mind actually, but of course cooked fresh shrimp taste better than preserved ones.

You never call your parents just to say hi.
They'd think I'm nuts if I do it all of a sudden. But if I'm in somewhere else, I usually phone home to tell them I've arrived safely just so they won't worry.

You always cook too much.
I DON'T COOK. *huffhuff*

If you don't live at home, when your parents call, they ask if you've eaten rice, even if it's midnight.
Doesn't apply to me.

Your parents tell you to boil herbs and stay inside when you get sick. They also tell you not to eat fried foods or baked goods because they produce hot air.
yes... and it's very annoying

Your parents never go to the movies.
of course!!

Your parents send money to their relatives in China.
Yes.

You use a face cloth.
Yup.

Your parents use a clothes line.
actually, no

You eat every last grain of rice in your bowl, but don't eat the last piece of food on the table.
I don't eat rice and of course I don't finish the last piece of food.
yes !

You starve yourself before going to all you can eat sushi.
no

You've joined a CD club at least once.
No.

You know someone who can get you a good deal on jewelry or electronics.
not really... well for some things we do.

You never discuss your love life with your parents.
DUH!!

Your parents are never happy with your grades.
Duh? Their chinese!!!! are they ever!!!

You keep most of your money in a savings account.
Yes.

You've been on the Love Boat or know someone who has.
nope. i'\ve seen the show though

Your toothpaste tubes are all squeezed paper-thin.
Of course, don't waste things!

You love Chinese Martial Arts films.
yes! well... depends on what type.

You have Tupperware in your fridge with three bites of rice or one leftover chicken wing.
no...

Shao Lin and Wu Tang actually mean something to you.
probably

You love to go to $1.75 movies.
Do they exist here?

You love to go to $1.50 movies even more.
See above.

You never order sweet-n-sour pork, egg foo young, or chop suey at a Chinese restaurant.
I don't understand English names for Chinese food... besides. why order them when you can make them!

You hate to spend more than $5 for lunch.
Yes XD

Someone in your family drives a Honda... with custom rims.
no

You have a Chinese knick-knack hanging from your rear-view mirror.
Nope, my parents hate those.

You like to eat chicken feet.
not me, but my parents do

You suck on fish heads and fish fins.
No.

You turn bright red after drinking two tablespoons of beer.
Never drank anything more than a lick of beer foam ^^;

You can get a buzz on Coors O'Douls or Miller Sharps.
WTF are those? = =;

You look like you are eighteen.
no...

You only buy used cars.
No.

You have more than five remotes in your house.
yea... but i think most of them are lost

You leave the plastic on the lampshade for ten years or more.
No. it's about 2

You can't bear to throw things away.
Yes XD

Your dad washes his hair four times a day, or never at all.
????

Your unassisted vision is worse than 20/500.
YES!!!!

You've worn glasses at least since the fifth grade.
yes

Your parents (or some other close relative) own a grocery store or restaurant.
I don't think so?

You drive around looking for the cheapest gas.
my dad does.

You add twice the amount of water recommended when making orange juice from concentrate.
I hate concentrate

You've never seen your parents hug.
Um... yeah.

Your grandmother lives with you and your family.
No, they're in China.

You never order desserts at restaurants.
depends

You always have water when dining out.
naw... it's coke or pepsi for me

You say "aiya!" and "wah!" frequently.
no...

You love Las Vegas, slot machines, and blackjack.
don't play yet

You love to play mah jong.
yes.. if i knew how to play

You have to read all your parents' mail written in English.
Nope, I have to speak for them or translate when need be, but not everything.

You are constantly being set up with uninteresting (and usually ugly) people by your parents.
No, they're not that stupid to do things like that. =p

You hate eating cheese.
yes!!!

You have a big aquarium filled with colorful fish somewhere in your house.
we had two fish... now we have 1 b/c my sister over fed it... and we had more before... but they always died befor we reach the house after buying it

Your mother is strangely obsessed with plants.
yes... very obsessed

White people look at you strangely if you tell them you are Buddhist.
i'm christian

You notice the main topic at family get-togethers is food.
no... mainly grades

You seldom ever owned new clothes if you were a second child.
i'm t he oldest

Your folks never speak under 10 decibels at family gatherings.
They're naturally loud. = =;

You never made the school football or basketball team.
I'm a gymnest

You have two middle initials instead of one.
no

You grow your own bean sprouts in the kitchen.
My mom does in the garden.

Your mother made you peel water chestnuts and snow peas.
No.

You have an lonely unmarried relative who frequently drops by during dinner time.
nope

You received little red envelopes containing money on special occasions.
New Year, yes.

You use the underside of a porcelain bowl to sharpen your knives.
I wouldn't know = =;

You cut your own hair?or had someone in your family do it.
My mom tried... now her friend that is a pro does it for me

Your grandmother has a lot of gold teeth?especially in front.
don't think so

You keep fresh garlic and ginger in the kitchen at all times.
My mom, yes.

You know what the term "lemon" or a "banana" means.
In what context? = =;

You only have to shave every other day (maybe).
Not really.

You wash and reuse ziplock bags.
No.

You know at least three people named Alan Wong.
LOL, but no.

You never drank milk after eating cherries.
yes. but mainly cause i don't like cherries.

Your parents collect jade jewelry.
Used to.

You always drink tea after a meal.
no.

Your dad owns at least one bird.
nope. had a cat

Your parents grow vegetables in a garden.
Yes!!!!

You use doilies to decorate your furniture.
no...

Your grandmother rapped your knuckles with her chopsticks while reaching food with your fingers.
No.

You're proud to be Chinese - and you pass these jokes on to all your Chinese friends!
yea.

hey - had an orthedontist appointment today... dr.weiss tightened it tighter than usuall??? wonder why???

but hey!! i found out where i'm going for summer break!! a cruise!!!

hey... this is the result of my boredness yesterday

http://img258.imageshack.us/img258/8614/cooliocopy5cj.png

http://img258.imageshack.us/img258/4161/zzzzz3oh.png

lol... i am officially(sp? amazing i'm actually passing english w/ an A ^-^) obsessed w/ LOVELESS!!! Soubi is sooo adorable. i just wuv how he just randomly says i love you to ritsuka! adorable!!! i was sooo mad when i found out obessesion was RE-scanlating the 1st two volumes!! then i found raws!! now i have volume 1-5 !!! i'm in a very happy mode!!!

in english we had to write parodies of certain Romeo and Juliet scenes... that wasn't the bad part. The bad part was presenting it... in class or on a video... either way, to me, it sounded fucked up. but anyways, my group did it by video taping it. I thought it was gonna be horrible, but it actually wasn't that bad... at least not comparted to the other ppl who presented their's.

back to loveless... i am completely in love w/ it. I'll probably be drawing like tons of pics of ritsuka and/or soubi........ when i figure out how to draw the well first!!

watched loveless ep.2 again. just love the opening and ending theme songs!! so purty! i wanna get the sound track that's comming out late may... T_T but i don't have any money!!!

here's the translated version of the Loveless_ED
Even if we embrace until it begins to hurt
…We two won’t be able to become one.
Even in a place deeper than kindness,
…Touching each other is merely pain.
Please bind us together.
We won’t dream anymore
We’ll just hold hands while lost…
…And start walking towards a cruel dawn.
True words must be somewhere in the real world
…Hiding in our nights of silence.
Surely, even now

___

there it is!!! i'll probably post pics next time... i drew one of jonny depp as captain jack sparrow. it turned out okay... i didn't like it but other ppl did.